QUOTE(bkluver @ Apr 19 2008, 08:41 PM) [snapback]34996[/snapback]
I think I can understand something of what you mean. When I was going through chemo, I think my art was very much a part of what kept me going day to day (aside from my faith). My first cancer, I wrote and drew in the handmade book (pictured below) while sitting endlessly at the Cancer Center getting treatments. I had made the paper and book in class with my students.
I then turned to drawing a great deal while in the hospital a month for an induction chemo for my second cancer. Afterward, spending those long hours sitting in the Cancer Center, I would ask for pictures of the nurses children and I would draw pencil portraits almost everyday. Altogether I probably finished between 40 and 50 portraits. I believe giving myself those little faces to look at and draw everyday placed my focus on something aside from the obvious.
I guess I post my drawings because I believe God blessed me with this talent for a purpose - maybe just for others to enjoy, maybe for my own health; for His glory, I know. Whatever his reason, I love creating art and it blesses me to share it with others. I am also blessed by the sharing of others.
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Some of the art that I do is "Pin-up" art old time illustration cheese cake, some are provocative but out of almost 300 over a period of more then 25 years, they amount to only a hand full. But Inre to
things being dark , I have always worked from an instinctual on the spot momentum, like the original grimms fairy tales, you know they were actually very gruesome, and I am detail oriented, so it becomes very graphic, at times. some of it depicts casualties of war, some Gothic, vampire, werewolf concept art and like I said it may be influenced by my mood, or perhaps the medicines, derivatives of the "poppy flowers are a cancer patients friend" thats meant to be in fun, its not a football; for someone to grab and run with. I am very greatful to be alive. When I first contacted Brenda, I was in the "Cancer treatment Centers Of America" at Baltimore, and I was very ill and angry because I had been misdiagnosed , and if caught earlier , Lots of pain could have been avoided, But I acquaint everyone with this to show that it drastically affected my work, There were hundreds of scenes of mayhem and graphic renditions of vampire/werewolf gore, all the anger I had showed and still shows in all my work. as an adult I thought I should not subject this ...wholesome place to my psychological battering. In fact I should not have brought my illness into any conversation but it became necessary to have everyone grasp the true meaning of why I don't post, Strangely, I almost always encourage a person to publish in direct opposition to this thread. I tell anyone and everyone to get their work noticed by whatever means. Just not me.